After reading my last blog entry, a gentleman contacted me for some advice. Now I don't feel it necessary to go into any more detail about his situation, however it did make me realize that some people misumderstood my post. This happens to be a very passionate topic for me and I am going to take this moment to share with you all what I told him in regards to the whole thing. Hopefully it can clarify things for us all or at least provide further insight as to how I view this point of interest:

My response:
Well first, you have to realize that just because one provider is a certain way does not mean the rest are too. That is like asking a mechanic if he is a good cook and then deciding all mechanics are the same at cooking as the one you asked. I will answer your question but keep that in mind because she is not me and so I can't give you any real answers about her.

When I answered that question on my blog you refer to, I took careful consideration and thought into how to say what I wanted to say so others would understand it. So yes I was (and/or am) invested enough to think about them when I think of what this job has cost me over time. I wouldn't have thought twice about any of the ones that I let go if they did not mean anything to me.

Sounds to me like your girlfriend has been hurt by maybe some other men in her life (just like we ALL have) but unfortunately she is using that as an excuse to justify her keeping you close enough to love her but just out of reach for her to have to give that love back. It is a basic human reaction and completely natural for us to have the urges to run screaming at the thought of loving another person. I mean it is a fact that everyone eventually goes away. So maybe she's just trying to figure out if this time is worth the inevitable heartache that she will feel when you too go away one day. She needs your patience and consideration. I am going to say one more thing to you and if you didn’t listen to a word I said just now I BEG you to hear me now:

If you truly love someone or something, it is worth fighting for. Worth waiting for and nothing that is worth it is ever going to be the easy route but once you get where you want to be you will look back and be so very happy that you didn't give up on that person or thing you love so much. She'll come around sweetheart. Just don't push and you will be amazed at what will happen. Good luck and keep your chin up doll.


And I feel this is %150 true. Words to live by right there ladies and gentlemen. Anyhow that is it for today I get to take a 4day trip to DC in morning so I will catch ya in about 4 days! Wish me luck you's guys

PS If anyone out there has a laptop of any kind I will give free BJ's for eternity just to be able to figure out a even trade or some shit!! I am desperate to find one before mornng mine just went kapooie on me so yeah.. Let e know if you can help me and thank you in advance if you can! x )
This is a discussion going on the board right now that I found interesting...

The thread starter says:

"I track all my cash transactions and over the past 4 or 5 years of engaging in this business. I have spent over $80K, not counting the many Louis Vuitton bags and other gifts that I bought along the way for those special ladies that touched my heart and other parts.
So the question is how much has this hobby cost you, if you dare keep track."

My first reaction was DAMMIT! I wish I had that much money to put into a "hobby" or anything for that matter! Then I began to think about the other question, "Do you keep track?"

Well I can only speak from the other side of the whole deal when I give my answer-and though I dont think it was where the guy who asked initially was going with it-I would like to answer anyways.


I never knew when I went into this job exactly what I was sacraficing. I mean though it is not who I am it is truly just my job, it still has its own way of affecting the rest of my life all the same. I mean any friendship, or relationship I decide I want to enter eventually, the other person will have to know(assuming I want it to last for any amount of time)...If I don't tell them they wll find out anyways so in many situations this factor has prevented me from letting several folks close to me that I may have wanted to otherwise. I have had to say goodbye to a lot of toher things also but the one mentioned I feel is the most signifigant to me.

Now I said all that so I could say this:

For me it isn't so much about what the hobby has cost me as it is what it has given me. For reference (and so I don't have to retype what has already been said:



this was my round about way of replying to that one there on the board. If you have a few min go and read it. It ain't all bad and really its what I think of when I think of the cost/benifit of being involved with the industry, for me anyways.

I guess it goes back to the mindset, it doesnt matter how good bad or indfiferent something is that happens to you or your life, just so long as you take every positive thing you can from it and maybe even learn some things, then it didn't happen for nothing. I see this time in my life as a wonderful gift and I have been blessed to experience so much. And yes I am learning from it on a minute by minute basis.

Now for some random nonsense as to lighten things up a bit:
















We are currently needing help with a few things:

Costumes for the girls

Each lady will need something sexy and theme fitting to wear for her shoot so if you would like to donate funds for that please contact me directly. Thanks to all who help suport this.

Any other ideas, or props, or just anything at all you may have that would help with the shooting process that you may wanna let us use. Just let me know please and we can figure out a convenient way to get it to the lady who will use it.


That is really it for now. I will be back when I have enough time to actually share new thought s and stuff with you all. xoxo

Now for some pics of the social the other night:





I am working on re designing mine now including the design portfolio so soon it will be added and all updated... Looks good doesn't it? I think it is my best work so far. I dig it anyways...






On other news, the calender competition has been done and the votes added! I can't say who won yet but let me just put it like this, There are some truly sexy women on the list who are sure to make this a super hot final product! Oh I can't wait to see how it develops!!




I wanna give one more special thank you to the entire group of folks who entered in the competition. They are all really awesome and I hope they enter again next year...



The winners will be announced at the next social so be there or be square.
Thats all that is new with me really... Going back out of town soon so if ya wanna see me you should do it this week! xoxo
Remember me?

I have been neglecting you again havent I? BAD CHARLI!!! Lots going on now days and I had a week or so where I was not feeling great either so go figure. But I am back to say hello and I am still alive so don't panik too much.

Ok so today's class is all about "haters". Thats right boys and girls, I said "haters"...


There have been lots of vicious folks around doing vicious things in hopes of bringing some really good folks down and I have a theory as to why this is happening. I think those people doing the silly shit are doing it cause they want attewntion. Like a child when he wants attention, it doesn't matter if the attention is good oir bad positive or negative just so long as they get it...


So I'm a give 'em what they want. So, now I present to you my dear friends, a special tribute to all the bored and insecure idiots out there who can't help but to make life a little harder on the rest of us.

I salute you!








Jealousy
Jealousy is here taken to be synonymous with envy. It is defined to be a sorrow which one entertains at another's well-being because of a view that one's own excellence is in consequence lessened. Its distinctive malice comes from the opposition it implies to the supreme virtue of charity. The law of love constrains us to rejoice rather than to be distressed at the good fortune of our neighbour. Besides, such an attitude is a direct contradiction of the spirit of solidarity which ought to characterize the human race and, especially, the members of the Christian community. The envious man tortures himself without cause, morbidly holding as he does, the success of another to constitute an evil for himself. The sin, in so far as it defies the great precept of charity, is in general grievous, although on account of the trifling matter involved, as well as because of the lack of deliberation, it is often reputed to be venial. Jealousy is most evil when one repines at another's spiritual good. It is then said to be a sin against the Holy Ghost. It is likewise called a capital sin because of the other vices it begets. Among its progeny St. Thomas (II-II:36) enumerates hatred, detraction, rejoicing over the misfortunes of one's fellow, and whispering. Regret at another's success is not always jealousy. The motive has to be scrutinized. If, for instance, I feel sorrow at the news of another's promotion or rise to wealth, either because I know that he does not deserve his accession of good fortune, or because I have founded reason to fear he will use it to injure me or others, my attitude, provided that there is no excess in my sentiment, is entirely rational. Then, too, it may happen that I do not, properly speaking, begrudge my neighbour his happier codition, but simply am grieved that I have not imitated him. Thus if the subject-matter be praiseworthy, I shall be not jealous but rather laudably emulous.







Ok so I have been tagged by Chevalier. For those who don't know, the idea behind the game is to list of five things you’re grateful for, then “tag” five other bloggers, who will do the same, and so on and so forth.


In no particular order:
1.) Wow, this isn't as easy as you might think...I guess the first thing that comes to mind when i think of what all i am grateful for is probably my dog.

I know some of you think that is silly but not to me. I never knew before I got this dog how much it would end up helping me later. We grew up with a mini zoo in our house. My pops has this soft spot for animals, especially ones that are hurt or need help. We never knew what he'd cme home with next. A short list of some of the pets my father brought home to us throughout the years:


A guiena pig that was abused. The previous owners had him in a cabinet under the kitchen sink for who knows how long and didn't feed it or clean itsliving area or anything. He was the mantinence man at the place we lived so when they moved he found te poor baby and sure enough nursed it back to health. That little guys name was cowboy and he wound up living another 8 years. Now that is a long time for a guinea pig.
Cowboy


A cat who managed to get his butthole glued shut by some mean kids... It was walking around making horrible sounds so my dad brings it home and put glue remover on its "area" so it could poop. He decided later to keep the kitty. We named him bubbles. But he was nicknamed satan later due to his not so friendly nature.
Bubbles the cat


A dog with only 3 feet. The previous owner had stomped his other foot off in a drunken rage. My dad fed the dog anti depressants (1/2 per day) until the dog finally started eating again. It was almost killed from the traumatic incident. He still has that dog.
"Ilean" the 3 legged dog


And the list goes on and on... Point is I never understood why these pets were so important to my pops. He had this crazy bond with them that was a mystery to me. I never had anything that I was solely responsible for. That was dependant on me and me alone to survive and be happy. Hell I couldnt even manage to keep a cacus alive for long...

But I decided after a lot of thought and consideration that i was time to get a dog. I did my research and decided a mini daschound was going to be the best companion for me. Mainly cause they are small and very loving and attached to their owners. So I did just hat and now after having my very own ouppy doggie for a year and a half I see why my dad loved his pets the way he did (and still does). This dog is cooler than I am and has more personality than a room full of me's would. He has seen me through a break up, a lot of family loss, and more emotional sadness than I care to mention. And still after seeing me at my very worse, my dog is the one and only thing in my entire life that has continued to love me unconditionally regardless of my imperfections. He doesn't care if I am dressed to kill or dressed at all. It makes him no difference if I am in bed with flu or feeling on top of the world. He still loves his mommy (thats me) all the same. When I leave, for ten mins or ten days, he is always waiting for me at the door when I get home with a wagging tail and a whole bunch of kisses like he hit the lottery or something. I get to be a rock star everytime I walk into my apartment. Thanks Bubbie for being the bestest friend a girl could ever have.




2.) For a younger woman (25) I have managed to experience a lotttttt of life the good and the bad. I have been blessed enough to see amazing breathtaking places, meet interesting and exciting celebrities, attend high profile events and even got to party with a few rock and roll legends once or twice. I have eaten at the same table as some of our countries politicians and I got to smoke some of the best pot ever with Willie Nelson himself. Now, here's the kicker; along with these wonderful gifts that I have been granted in my time, comes many severe and traumatic events too. Some unbelievable loss and unforseen tragedies. I lost 9 very important people to me within a 5 monh period back in my freshman year of highschool. I watched my mom and dad slowly change from 2 young and happy people into 2 junkies who only cared about their next fix. I was attacked by a pittbull at age 4, causing me to have to go through plastic surgery on my face 4 times over 3 years. Ya would never know it now but at one time I had a scar from my ear over to my chin. I was kidnaped once and held hostage for 3 days. I survived drowning nearly to death, a house fire, being attacked not once or twice but three times, I survived a drug overdose in college-a guy dosed me with the date rape drug rohypnol, raped me and left me at an abandoned house. I was in 2 car accidents involving fatalaties and I have come out of it all a better, stronger, smarter and happier person than before. So, I am grateful for all the terrible things that have happened to and/or because of me. Because it all makes up who I have become and I gotta say I'm really begining to like who I am evolving into. I have nothing I would like to go back and change. How does that old saying go, You know there’s never Pleasure without the pain.

3.) Fuck!! 3? Are you serious! This is going to go down as the longest blog post ever. Ok I have been really good lately about following through with shit till the end. Never been my strong point but i have worked and gotten better about it so I can handle this.
Ok seriously # 3.) I am grateful for my ability (and knack) to help other people. If I had to pick one thing to do before I go I'd pick being able to change the life of even just one other person in a positive way. Better even is to leave behind a gift or something that will help many others in a significant way.

I will let yall know how that one turns out later on...

4.) Men. Yes I said men. They are often lazy, self centered, pushy, and some are also cocky which in my honest opinion should be added to the list of unforgivable sins. I HATE pushy cocky people. If they have testostrone in their bodies the chances of them possessng those "traits" goes up 37.5222222222222222222229 percent. Ok not to mentiona few choice pickens from of the male population have been the cause of some bullshit drama, hurt feelings and ther random ishnit. But alas my cryptonite. The cure is the cause...

Men, the giver of love, the sweetest thorn in the side of a woman. Man will fix your car and then piss you off later that day for some dumb shit. They cheat and they sweat and their feet smell and they take out the trash and when they know it really counts they will come up with some of the most badass shit to say to just make you light up like the 4th of july. They sure got great timing like that. Men annoy you to tears and hardly ever remember your birthday but they are the best huggers known to mankind and in the moments of crisis a man will almost always just know how to get out alive and they can't bring themselves to leave a woman or child behind. Ahh, yes man...giver of love, sunshine happiness, assisting in baby making and the specializing in arm-pit farting. Gotta love 'em.



5.) Yayyy!!! Last one. Um...ok got it. Music. I can't tell you how influencial a song can be to a persons entire exhistance at any givin point in time. A good song can take you back to a different place and time. Stop you in your tracks and crack a grin out of no where even on your worst days. It is responsible for the first kiss, fuck and usually a really significant factor in relationships and love. I mean who can recall the song that played the first time they got their dicks wet? I know that the first time I gave a blow job was in the movie theatre on the opening day of waynes world. I can remember what scene was on the screen the moment the guy "finished" without saying shit so I damn near threw up on him right there. I can also tell you that I have no clue what his name was now...Fun times...Now everytime I hear Queen's Bohemian Rhapsody I experience the distinct taste of a man's cumm. Siliness isn't it? When the radio plays tuesdays gone, babies got her blue jeans on OR joker by steve miller band, I usually have to hold back tears cause those songs are all represenative of my sister to me. I hear them and my mind is filled with wonderful memories. Scenes of my favorite moments run through my thoughts and I can even remember for just one second in time the smell of my sister's hair. The sound of her voice when we were 5 & 7 and she was convinced she was the boss of me. I used to hate that sound because she'd sing along with every song but she never got the words right and her voice was not made for singing. But she still never let that stop her from doing it. I named my first son at a Fleetwood mac concert. and had my first druken night at the moody blues show on my 15th birthday. I guess I also give it a lot of credit as a big outlet for myself. I have been able to express my deepest thoughts and feelings through music. (I have been known to write some super dope lyrics now & then). Yes, music connecting us with our past connecting TO us in the present, and waiting patiently for us in the tommorrow's.


Thats it. long huh? good luck reading it through to here. If you did, give yourself a cookie you earned it and then go outside man!! you spend too much time on the computer.
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..has kept me so tied up that I have neglected my poor 4 or 5 readers! I am terribly sorry for that and should be spanked immediately! Just kiddin'.
~~segway~~
Moving along now... A recent question on the board has peaked my interest: http://www.aspd.net/showthread.php?s=ede0425d155334eec4fe8f52878ea742&threadid=359099
Short verson: A provider who used to dance with a girl was witness to the club reciving a letter through the postal svc statng this other lady was infected with HIV. She recently spotted same chick advertizing for GFE around town and wanted to know what to do about this...
My first reaction was the obvious "tell folks" only cause it poses a huge threat to us all not to know. IF it is in fact the truth and not as dragonass pointed out a bogus letter sent by any random person who wanted to hurt the girls $$.
Man that is tough. The one thing that I always have in the back of y head is that fear of the dreaded HIV. I mean you couldn't tell it if you compared me to most folks since I am what I am BUT that HUGE fear is what keeps me doing it the way that I do. I have been known to be even OCD about it but in my opinion if we ALL WERE as careful then I wouldn't have so much to worry about anyways right? right..
Either way I am happy that I am not the one with that burden to know who the other lady in question is and that decision would be a hard one considering there is no real proof only the one letter from??
No real direction just random thoughts bout that whole thing.
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It has been mentioned several times in passing. It seems no one has much objection to the idea, hell the ones I have discussed it with LOVE the thought of it! So I have decided to make it happen. Yes sir-I am happy to announce aspd's very first "Angels of aspd.net" Calender Contest! This will be a lot of fun for all who participate! Ok so here are the rules:1.) Nominations must be made BY a MALE aspd.net member who is preferably active and has at least one accredited review within the past six months. This is intended as a gift for actual contributors. Those of you who do not post but are active in the hobby are also welcome to pm your entries for possible nominee's. 2.) Limit 4 nominee suggestions per hobbyist. The requirements for nominee's are simple:
Any lady who has ever been or is currently a DFW based provider with minimum of 2 reviews done on her
You must provide the ladies handle or some form of contact for her so that I can send her an official invitation to participate in this contest.
I must receive a response from each lady that is invited to participate. I can not legally include any lady who does not give me consent to do so.
Once I receive enough entries, I will post a list of the official nominee's for you guys to anonymously vote on for the calendar.
The ladies with the top 13 votes will be invited to attend a photo shoot for the calendar. One lady for each calendar month and the lady with the most votes will be asked to pose for the cover of the calendar. All proceeds will be split evenly between the winners of the contest and the photographer(s) who do the shoot(s).The 1st deadline will be July 30th. The ladies who are chosen to participate will receive the invitations on the 31 of July and will have until August 14th (2 weeks) to accept. Once this is done we will have our vote. I am trying to figure out a way to limit the votes to only the hobby guys. Maybe we can have the mods post it on one of the men only sections of the board. It is FOR YOU GUYS so I will find some way to keep others from voting and possibly messin it up for yall.OK OK now, this is what I am still needing from yall:Anyone who can help with any of the following things, please contact me asap. Thanks in advance:Photographer(s);I am thinking for sure Raven and of course J. Rush they are both terrific photographers and also active board members so it is appropriate to say the least. So J. Rush and Dfwraven if you see this please let me know if you would be interested in the project. Also any other photographers who would like to be a part of the calendar just shoot me a pm and we will surely need your help somewhere.THE WINNERS WILL RECEIVE:Bragging rights.A free photo shoot and copies of all pictures taken of her. The only photo she will not have the rights to use will be the photo chosen for the calendar.One of the calendars free of charge.And as stated above, the proceeds will be split evenly between the winning ladies and the photographers that are chosen to shoot the photo set(s)This is it as far as winnings for now. If you or anyone else would like to donate anything to the list of prizes for the winning ladies, please contact me with your ideas and/or details and we will add it to the list here. I do believe that is the jest of it. Any questions please pm me or e mail me and I will do my best to help you with your inquiries!IMPORTANT SIDE NOTE TO EVERYONE:Please keep a few key factors in mind with this whole thing- Fella's, this is supposed to be a sweet gift for you just to remind you all that we appericiate what you do for us and our families and for all aspects of our lives that you create a positive impact on. I do hope that you all can remember that (and set aside any possible BS so this can be the coolest possible thing for all involved) NO PERSONAL ATTACKS OR HIDDEN AGENDA'S ALLOWED HERE OK? That one gos for everyone with AND without a penis. Laides, this couldn't possibly be anything but fun for you as well as a possiblity to gain even more exposure and that usually makes for more business later on too BTW...If this turns out to be fun and worth the efforts, I will make it an annual contest for sure!!Thats it i swear it!!
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k yall in a good mood? good... So here is my question, Should I try stand up? I have been told I should but I dunno if I am funny enough. What do you think? Open micnight is weekly at a local comedy club so what say you?
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